Wow

Am I wrong to feel like I am betrayed. Not so recently my bf for a year dumped me via text message. You can imagine it, I was crushed!!! But he was sooo damn calm as if he didnt care. Now a month and a few days later he gets back with his other ex. Mind you he talked about her constantly. "Oh shes ugly." "Shes a whore, and dirty." I didn't want him to say that because their are two sides to an entire story. I cant only imagine what he says to her about me. I write to keep my mind distracted. This is needed by a huge distraction anyway. I have written a bit but not enought for a chapter. I just feel so betrayed and vulnerable right now. He was my world, I said I loved him and when I say that I mean it. I dont throw that word around like some girls do. I was willing to put my traveling vollege life on hold so I could be with him when his life got to difficult.

His mother drinks and is an alcoholic, she is a bit hard on him and I was willing to set my whole life plan away for him. We had been together for a year and the day before he dumps me I was even thinking of giving him my virginity. Thank god I didn't do it that day. Ive come to a crossroad, men are lying, cheating pigs who have no sense of self and pity towards the women they crush. Im only a teen, but I now what this choice is, Im not gonna date untill I'm 20. Maybe then the braincells will develope in a guy I meet and maybe then I'll be happy with someone.